Just HOW the hell am I supposed to be patient enough with the corruption of our entire tribally stunted species to remain playfully innovative?
It’s a monolithic, incredibly stupid monster called humanity. How am I supposed to find my personal equilibrium with THAT?
It seems to me at this time that trying to find any personal equilibrium in ANY of the collective and tribal stupidity is kinda hopeless.
Is the best we can do is relax while we wait out the insanity?
Does it really all boil down to patience and trust?
I asked myself that question, many times! And I remembered, the collective seems to mirror my own shadows, dilemmas and victim states … and I surrendered again to my own process of awakening.
So, is the collective me? or Am I the collective? Sure enough, the seperate mind clearly distinguishes, but where are the boundaries, truly?
The shadow frequency of corruption blocks, equilibrium comes and goes, hence harmony is not stable! I ask myself, how long do I want to have my mind be corrupted by false premisses?
I believe that if enough of us (even that is irrelevant) seriously integrate their own Shadow frequencies and naturally express their Gift frequencies, the mad collective will also transform, in my own mind, that is. It’s ALL ONE anyway, an expression of the ONE Consciousness, I just need to clear my coloured/corrupted glasses … surrender, trust and patience … for sure.
The moment I truly awake, everything is perfect as it is, I see/know the truth and see/know that the seperate mind is playing it’s silly games, individually as well as collectively.
Sure, it’s tiring, frustrating and hurting at times! Who Am I?
So what to DO??? and what to BE? BE mindfully aware and DO start again ;) and again … even time becomes irrelevant. And I remember, equilibrium comes and goes … until harmony IS stable.
I like the metaphor … before enlightenment one carries water and chops wood (asleep, suffering), during the process of enlightenment nothing makes sense (frustration and confusion), after enlightenment one carries water and chops wood (awake, radiant peace and a smile on one’s face, just because …)
Hopelessness is ok, this too shall pass …
Rolf Krahnert. ConsciousLiving Mentor, Coach for Transformation and Awakening