Becoming and Being - The Whole Story
There is no difference between i and you, when i speak of i it means i, you and everyone else too ...
I thought when there is god then there is also human
I thought god has created me
Or god is my essence, or god is an all loving, all knowing and all powerful being, or some kind of natural law or energy
All this i thought in part of myself, called human
But i am not human, not god and also not the sum of it all
And here my whole story starts …
Level by level, story by story, unfolding …
All in i
Nothing and One and All
Being and Becoming
Still One, not separated, still One and All
All in i, before the Beginning
At the Beginning was No Word, No God
All this began later
At the beginning of this second beginning there was nothing
The absolute, not being, nothing,
Non existence, which does not exist
a black hole, eternal breathlessness
And were nothing is, there's also no beginning
At the beginning I am, all by myself
i am myself in the beginning
i awaken out of the not being into being
i am this pure being, nothing else
Awaken always happens at no time
In an eternal moment, before time
i enter the stage of my story
i am the stage, the entering and the story, all at once
And i don't know it, because thought is not born yet
No thought is present yet
Why am i here all of a sudden?
The question doesn't make sense
Because there is no sense and no questions yet
Why doesn't exist also
Because why is coming out of duality
From cause and effect
And duality is not here yet
The only thing that exists is i
Apart from i there is nothing
i give birth to myself
i is rising out of nothing into eternal life
i am the awareness of my indistinguishable self
My joy about it is also my horror
I cannot die because i am life itself, i am trapped
The naked sense of being is unbearable
i am still in the eternal moment of my birth
In cheering horror of being itself
Thousand eternities later, and at the same moment
i am fully aware that i not only am but also can
i can do everything
It is obvious to me that my ability to do everything is absolute and unlimited power
And this state is my salvation from my onenesses
i recognise myself as unlimited potential
And i change into becoming
To give birth to the world out of myself
With this i am the active will of creation, the architect
i am still in the first eternal micro second, still one
But there is tension within i, the tension between being and becoming
Between yin and yang, it so enormous that i burst
i burst into two directions at the same time
As becoming i explode as an outside, and as being i implode as an inside
i am the Big Bang, i break apart
And i create within myself a movement of time and space
i change into the all embracing mother of duality
i am polarity, every polarity that exists
Dark and light, inside and outside, male and female, whole and single
Possible and real
i split my self, i become the tension between opposites
i encompass oneness and separation
One side of myself is God, the other is mankind
My God attribute comes from my being
My mankind attribute comes from my becoming
My being becomes the playing field, my doing becomes the player
Doing becomes deed and doer, all one.
Now countless beings, not people yet
We are God's holograms, each of these beings is unique version of self
Here we are one anymore, you and i, we are now like two waves
The same as water, yet still two waves.
God is like the ocean, out of which we rise, one by one
Every level of creation is the child of the previous
The sum of all of it
When becoming was pushing through polarity it split in 3 parts
I awake all of sudden as 3 fold cosmic force
As information, energy and matter ... (solid, fluid, gaseous) time (yesterday, tomorrow and today) space (width, height, length - here, there, between)
Out of which i can build a magnificent world
With unlimited creativity, with love and cruelty, instantly and ever lasting
As creator of creation i create and breathe life into it
As creator of the universal being i create myself as 3 fold living being
I create 3 cosmic instances, mind, spirit and body
Out of information i create mind, out of energy i create spirit and out of matter i create the body
Everything that is in i is in the world
Mind is bubbling with forms and possibilities
Body is creating in the dark and dense form of existence
Between both, connecting spirit is moving
Connecting the duality, moving back and forth between sorrow and joy
Evolution is moving forward, nevertheless, seeming more and more complex
The construct of your instances is not fixed but flexible
You bind and release it in five different ways, giving you different abilities
During the five eras
There is an entity and expression
Mind is not intelligence
Spirit is not the psyche
Corpus is not the physical body
It is still not a human being made from flesh and blood
For this i must first give birth to it
i give birth to myself
As creature of a biological matter, a incarnated human being
I bring all 3 instances to a focal point and create a new oneness, a human being
For this synthesis mind creates a compressed avatar and an agent, called intellect
My spirit creates my psyche, a living expression
And my corpus creates the physical body, a perfect vehicle
Living being as 3 fold being is also of polarity, has a gender
And i still contain everything the world contains
Now we see the glittering top of the the iceberg
Being made flesh
This new oneness is apparently light years apart from the ur-oneness
I look back at the beginning and recognise my creation
The polarity of the first hour encompasses worlds
It is stretching from the absolute to the absolute specific individual, to me as the individual being
I have now achieved something which couldn't be achieved at lower levels
Now I seem not to be whole, complete
Aligned, i can act in any direction
And i can select any direction myself, i even must select it
Do i have free will? It seems that only i have free will, not God.
God acts totally, absolute, god has no choice, he chooses all and everything
I, it seems, can choose freely, i choose and act inevitably
And this was what was intended all along
My undisputed freedom
It is the crown of creation and i am trapped in it like a moth in the amber
As incarnated human being i have achieved the biggest possible distance from oneness
And it takes many lifetimes until i can forget my source
It also takes many lifetimes until i accept and live my freedom
At every time i can remember part of my essence
I use my creativity as good as possible and i form my creatures on the shores of life,
anything is possible until i can't think of anything else
i recognise something new
The sand, the forms in the sand, the ocean, all of it in the container of my memories,
have learned a lot and earned a lot
What about the present? It seems that something is blocking me from moving on
It the urge to search inside, the search for peace, for meaning
There must be more to this life, searching, testing, trying
What is leading towards God, home, source
Or is it too comfortable to imagine an all benevolent, loving God
I slowly let my avatar remember
An all benevolent, loving God doesn't exist, did never exist
It is a divine dimension in myself, it can't lead nor decide
It for all sides, for everything, and it does everything
The divine has no direction and therefore the world has none
But i as the crown of creation, can decide
It seems that i decide all the time, inevitably
Even when i don't decide, i decide
When i decide to do god's will, i push my will onto god
And god in myself always follows, always conform with my decisions
My plan is always god's plan
No matter if i heal or if i destroy
God is always on my side, he can't act otherwise, therefore i am always responsible,
always and in all ways.
If I'm god why do i think, feel and perceive as the avatar?
But it's not entirely true, i can sense all levels of existence
Me sensing my god self is the most diffuse sense of existence
When i go over the rough skin of life
I sense life in my fingers, not in my whole body
The momentary felt experience is always at the forgoing of awareness
That's why i experience myself as the avatar more clearly as myself as god
Experience arises in awareness and is known by awareness
I am the seer, the seen and the sought
I am the hearer, the hearing and the sound
But i as the avatar cannot know my godly attribute
That's why i must embrace my wholeness, my wide and not manifested self
I listen to the voice for life in myself
I listen and know that am responsible for god
Everyone goes home, exactly as everyone is
Wise, broken, enriched, free
You and i and everyone are in the process of freeing god in ourselves
To free god? Absolutely!
But i can't stop there
I go through my godly self, like a sword through the water
Deeper through my polarity, through my integrity, through my becoming
Deeper, ever deeper into the deepest recesses of existence
Contemplating my ever-present, unlimited reality
I got to the ur ground of reality
I transform everything through my presence
Does it sound difficult, or impossible?
Oh no, it's not a hero's journey
It happens all by itself, like the warm rays of the sun opens a flower
When the flower open, it the the most natural thing
I transform all levels of existence, through my awareness, my presence
I transcend all levels through dissolving them
I redeem all forms, dissolve human, god and all things manifested
And oneness shines
This oneness, this all embracing knowing is something i totally know
The caterpillar dissolves, it turns into liquid
All the liquid which was once the caterpillar, is birthing itself anew, as butterfly
Everything that seemed to be difficult and impossible is dissolving
For the butterfly everything is simple, it flies
Where does it fly to?
To new universes, where they unfold their wings
I am not the avatar, not god, not being, nor the sum of it all
I am the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being
You and i
There is no difference between you and i and everyone else
We are the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being
Walk your way
In Peace and Trust
Inspired by Gor Rassadin
Photo by Artur D. on Unsplash
Don't be so hard on yourself because you haven't yet achieved what you wanted. Don't be so hard on yourself because you can't see the whole picture yet. Don't be so hard on yourself because you need a break.
Give yourself time to realise your dreams. This world has been hard on you long enough. It has pushed you to the limit. That time is over. Show yourself compassion and empathy. Give yourself time to rest.
Pick up your pace. Go slowly if you want to. It's not a race you have to win. It is your personal journey. Look back at all the steps you've taken so far. Maybe it hasn't always been a straight line, sometimes slower, sometimes faster, but with so many lessons and experiences along the way.
See the progress and your will to move forward. You are your best companion on your journey. You are your own hero. You are the one you spend the rest of your life with. Don't be so hard on yourself, but show yourself the love you so freely share with the rest of the world. You deserve it.
In Peace and Trust
What if your perceived reality is a fiction of your imagination? What if none of it existed the way you believe it does? What if reality the way we have been told is made up by the thinking mind? And what if the One consciousness dreaming it all into being, spontaneously. Pure potentiality at play! Because it can!
What if you are living in a kind of computer program, like in the movie ‘The Matrix’ with different levels or dimensions, like a dream-like experience, just with different layers of simulations.
That the only thing that was truly real was Source, all is One and all originates from and returns to that One. It is always atONEment with every aspects of its spontaneous creation. All other layers of this illustrious game are but part of that, these being the different dimensions. Awareness being aware of itself.
God Source, or all that is, was and ever will be, being the only true reality and all else, all fragmentations, separation into seeming different forms of consciousness, appearing as duality, as multiplicity and diversity, was but a dream.
A dream to imagine all the ways consciousness could experience itself as, because it can. From the highest most delightful and joyful expressions to the deepest, darkest and most painful ones, That One can imagine and create. An endless play of unlimited, ever-present consciousness.
When Neo gets shot by the agent in ‘The Matrix’ he survives. Why was that? It was because he has transcended it, the Maya, the play of light, he knew, he remembered. He woke up from the dream of forgetfulness, he remembered that he was, is and ever will be ‘The One’, and any apparent expressions of the dream have no existence by and in themselves. Knowing is knowing knowing, it’s all there is really going on.
There is no spoon because it doesn't exist, it's a 'hallucination', part of the dream. That's why later on no bullets can hit him. He absolutely knows they're not real, that all is energy and inter-connected fields of frequencies. He has learned and remembered to see things as they truly are. Yet any experience is real! Experience arising in, known by and made of the One, the One consciousness.
Also, it is one thing to understand the concept of All is One and another to actually feel it, be it, and knowing that we are all potentially The One, it's just that we've forgotten, fallen asleep to our true nature.
What we are is fractals of God Source but also all of it. If we inquire into everything we imagine we are and exists and we follow down the rabbit hole, let’s see where it leads us. The reassurance is that it will always lead us back to our true Self and Source. Time is multi-dimensional, all exists simultaneously, in truth there is no past or future. Time is a construct of the thinking mind. Space is a construct of perception.
We exist in all moments of time at once, the time we were born, the time it was our third birthday, the time we had our first kiss, the first time our heart felt broken, and the time we die in this physical body and all those other life's we're living. All is happening simultaneously. All is interconnected. And we are always One with God Source, with All That Is.
There is nothing to be afraid of or we could miss out on as WE ARE it, ALL OF IT, all of the time. The rest is illusion and the dream of forgetfulness.
In this way we then understand that truly all is always conspiring for us, nothing and no one is against us, even though from a level of the separate mind’s perspective this may seem so. There is nothing to defend, nothing to promote.
Even when for the majority of the time in our human life's we have learned through pain and trauma, instead of play and joy. That still is all part of the dream, how could it not. This is of course as simple and as complex as one makes it, infinite layers to that we call consciousness, and all is that. So there is just One here, there are no others. The sense of separation is the cause of our suffering.
At the level of perception of course there is the sense of ‘me and the other/s’, but we are solving this challenge from a higher viewpoint. It's both and as the saying goes, you can't solve a problem from the level it exists, you have to rise above it.
From there all can be seen simultaneously for what it is, each level from from a different perception. Here there is no good versus evil, there is no war besides the inner, the imagined. So when there are no others and we are everything and everyone, we have dreamt this all into being as The One, then we also have the power to dream another dream into being. We are Infinite and Eternal and there is no beginning and no end, all is NOW, HERE, and nowhere.
In fact, it is The One that is dreaming it into being, this dance of Maja. Does the entity who believes it is making any decision really exist? On who’s behalf do we make decisions? Where is that one, can you point to it? Remember, every level of this game is valid and exists in energetic form and the experience is real.
As we are One with it as well as all of Life, we can increasingly rest in being, letting choice-less awareness exactly as it is. And then we can also be aware of this energy, let transformation be, letting us dive into ever widening rings of awareness.
We remember that everything is inside of us and not out there. And we realise that the universe is in us, not we in the universe.
With Love + Respect
ConsciousLiving Coach/Mentor and Gene Keys Ambassador
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Rolf Krahnert. ConsciousLiving Coach, Guide and Mentor for Transformational Processes.