Becoming and Being - The Whole Story

Becoming and Being - The Whole Story


There is no difference between i and you, when i speak of i it means i, you and everyone else too ...

I thought when there is god then there is also human 
I thought god has created me
Or god is my essence, or god is an all loving, all knowing and all powerful being, or some kind of natural law or energy

All this i thought in part of myself, called human 
But i am not human, not god and also not the sum of it all
And here my whole story starts …
Level by level, story by story, unfolding …

All in i

Nothing 

Nothing and One and All 
Being and Becoming
Still One, not separated, still One and All
All in i, before the Beginning 
Zero, Nothing
At the Beginning was No Word, No God
All this began later 
At the beginning of this second beginning there was nothing 
The absolute, not being, nothing, 
Non existence, which does not exist 
a black hole, eternal breathlessness
And were nothing is, there's also no beginning

i Am

At the beginning I am, all by myself
i am myself in the beginning
i awaken out of the not being into being
i am this pure being, nothing else
Awaken always happens at no time 
In an eternal moment, before time 
i enter the stage of my story
i am the stage, the entering and the story, all at once 
And i don't know it, because thought is not born yet 
No thought is present yet 
Why am i here all of a sudden?
The question doesn't make sense
Because there is no sense and no questions yet
Why doesn't exist also
Because why is coming out of duality 
From cause and effect 
And duality is not here yet
The only thing that exists is i
Apart from i there is nothing
i give birth to myself
i is rising out of nothing into eternal life
i am the awareness of my indistinguishable self
My joy about it is also my horror
I cannot die because i am life itself, i am trapped
The naked sense of being is unbearable 

i can

i am still in the eternal moment of my birth
In cheering horror of being itself
Thousand eternities later, and at the same moment
i am fully aware that i not only am but also can 
i can do everything
It is obvious to me that my ability to do everything is absolute and unlimited power 
And this state is my salvation from my onenesses 
i recognise myself as unlimited potential
And i change into becoming
To give birth to the world out of myself 
With this i am the active will of creation, the architect
i am still in the first eternal micro second, still one
But there is tension within i, the tension between being and becoming
Between yin and yang, it so enormous that i burst

the split

i burst into two directions at the same time
As becoming i explode as an outside, and as being i implode as an inside
i am the Big Bang, i break apart
And i create within myself a movement of time and space
i change into the all embracing mother of duality 
i am polarity, every polarity that exists
Dark and light, inside and outside, male and female, whole and single
Possible and real
i split my self, i become the tension between opposites 
i encompass oneness and separation
One side of myself is God, the other is mankind
My God attribute comes from my being 
My mankind attribute comes from my becoming 
My being becomes the playing field, my doing becomes the player 
Doing becomes deed and doer, all one.
Now countless beings, not people yet
We are God's holograms, each of these beings is unique version of self
Here we are one anymore, you and i, we are now like two waves 
The same as water, yet still two waves. 
God is like the ocean, out of which we rise, one by one

i create

Every level of creation is the child of the previous
The sum of all of it
When becoming was pushing through polarity it split in 3 parts
I awake all of sudden as 3 fold cosmic force
As information, energy and matter ... (solid, fluid, gaseous) time (yesterday, tomorrow and today) space (width, height, length - here, there, between)
Out of which i can build a magnificent world
With unlimited creativity, with love and cruelty, instantly and ever lasting
As creator of creation i create and breathe life into it
As creator of the universal being i create myself as 3 fold living being
I create 3 cosmic instances, mind, spirit and body
Out of information i create mind, out of energy i create spirit and out of matter i create the body 
Everything that is in i is in the world 
Mind is bubbling with forms and possibilities
Body is creating in the dark and dense form of existence 
Between both, connecting spirit is moving 
Connecting the duality, moving back and forth between sorrow and joy
Evolution is moving forward, nevertheless, seeming more and more complex
The construct of your instances is not fixed but flexible
You bind and release it in five different ways, giving you different abilities
During the five eras
There is an entity and expression
Mind is not intelligence
Spirit is not the psyche
Corpus is not the physical body 
It is still not a human being made from flesh and blood
For this i must first give birth to it

i give birth to myself

As creature of a biological matter, a incarnated human being
I bring all 3 instances to a focal point and create a new oneness, a human being
For this synthesis mind creates a compressed avatar and an agent, called intellect 
My spirit creates my psyche, a living expression 
And my corpus creates the physical body, a perfect vehicle
Living being as 3 fold being is also of polarity, has a gender
And i still contain everything the world contains
Now we see the glittering top of the the iceberg
Being made flesh
This new oneness is apparently light years apart from the ur-oneness 
I look back at the beginning and recognise my creation
The polarity of the first hour encompasses worlds
It is stretching from the absolute to the absolute specific individual, to me as the individual being 
I have now achieved something which couldn't be achieved at lower levels
Now I seem not to be whole, complete 
Aligned, i can act in any direction 
And i can select any direction myself, i even must select it
Do i have free will? It seems that only i have free will, not God.
God acts totally, absolute, god has no choice, he chooses all and everything
I, it seems, can choose freely, i choose and act inevitably 
And this was what was intended all along
My undisputed freedom
It is the crown of creation and i am trapped in it like a moth in the amber

i remember

As incarnated human being i have achieved the biggest possible distance from oneness
And it takes many lifetimes until i can forget my source
It also takes many lifetimes until i accept and live my freedom
At every time i can remember part of my essence
I use my creativity as good as possible and i form my creatures on the shores of life, 
endless creation, 
anything is possible until i can't think of anything else
i recognise something new
The sand, the forms in the sand, the ocean, all of it in the container of my memories, 
have learned a lot and earned a lot 
What about the present? It seems that something is blocking me from moving on
It the urge to search inside, the search for peace, for meaning 
There must be more to this life, searching, testing, trying
What is leading towards God, home, source 
Or is it too comfortable to imagine an all benevolent, loving God
I slowly let my avatar remember
An all benevolent, loving God doesn't exist, did never exist
It is a divine dimension in myself, it can't lead nor decide 
It for all sides, for everything, and it does everything
The divine has no direction and therefore the world has none
But i as the crown of creation, can decide
It seems that i decide all the time, inevitably 
Even when i don't decide, i decide
When i decide to do god's will, i push my will onto god
And god in myself always follows, always conform with my decisions
My plan is always god's plan
No matter if i heal or if i destroy
God is always on my side, he can't act otherwise, therefore i am always responsible, 
always and in all ways.

i dissolve

If I'm god why do i think, feel and perceive as the avatar?
But it's not entirely true, i can sense all levels of existence 
Me sensing my god self is the most diffuse sense of existence 
When i go over the rough skin of life 
I sense life in my fingers, not in my whole body
The momentary felt experience is always at the forgoing of awareness
That's why i experience myself as the avatar more clearly as myself as god
Experience arises in awareness and is known by awareness 
I am the seer, the seen and the sought 
I am the hearer, the hearing and the sound
But i as the avatar cannot know my godly attribute 
That's why i must embrace my wholeness, my wide and not manifested self 
I listen to the voice for life in myself
I listen and know that am responsible for god
Everyone goes home, exactly as everyone is
Wise, broken, enriched, free
You and i and everyone are in the process of freeing god in ourselves
To free god? Absolutely!
But i can't stop there
I go through my godly self, like a sword through the water 
Deeper through my polarity, through my integrity, through my becoming
Deeper, ever deeper into the deepest recesses of existence 
Contemplating my ever-present, unlimited reality
I got to the ur ground of reality
I transform everything through my presence
Does it sound difficult, or impossible?
Oh no, it's not a hero's journey
It happens all by itself, like the warm rays of the sun opens a flower 
When the flower open, it the the most natural thing
I transform all levels of existence, through my awareness, my presence 
I transcend all levels through dissolving them 
I redeem all forms, dissolve human, god and all things manifested
And oneness shines
This oneness, this all embracing knowing is something i totally know 

i transform

The caterpillar dissolves, it turns into liquid 
All the liquid which was once the caterpillar, is birthing itself anew, as butterfly
Everything that seemed to be difficult and impossible is dissolving
For the butterfly everything is simple, it flies
Where does it fly to?
To new universes, where they unfold their wings 
I am not the avatar, not god, not being, nor the sum of it all
I am the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being 

You and i 

There is no difference between you and i and everyone else
We are the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being 

Walk your way 


In Peace and Trust

Rolf Krahnert 

rolfkrahnert.com



Inspired by Gor Rassadin
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