From Victimhood to Freedom
Let’s face it, we all get triggered and feeling upset from time to time. Getting triggered and feeling upset is a way to learn to live with others and especially with ourselves.
So, you got triggered and are upset. What now?
The truth is that getting triggered and upset is all about ourselves, it’s never about someone else. It is you that feels upset, it is you that got triggered, right?
Sure, you had an experience, and you don’t like what you have seen, heard or experienced, for whatever reason.
Life is confronting you with something in form of an experience, a situation or someone behaving in a certain way. You need to learn to look at your experience in this way; life is providing an opportunity for you to reflect and grow.
To grow and evolve we need to learn how to transform conflicts, triggers and upsets. Otherwise we’re locked in to a seeming endless spiral of suffering. The suffering does not itself guarantee growth, it’s how we deal with our experience.
Our experience is simple the catalyst. In other words, conflicts, triggers and upsets are an opportunity to see yourself for who you truly are.
Your growth shows in two ways. Firstly, you know when you have grown when you realise that certain situations or experiences are no longer a trigger for you. You have evolved into a more harmonious state of consciousness.
Secondly, you have become more mindful, and certain thought forms with their attached feelings and sensations can be present in your awareness without an immediate reaction. You no longer resist ‘what is’ and are not immediately seeking ‘what is not’. You are able to be with ‘what is’ at the moment. It doesn’t mean you need to like it. You have realised that inner resistance veils your equilibrium.
These realisations are a sign for your radical transformation. You are more and more opening your capacity to bring the light of awareness into what was previously un-aware.
You have realised patterns that have previously caused an immediate reaction and now you have replaced it with a response, or no response at all. You have become responsible. Being responsible means you’re able to respond, instead of react.
You are able to take a deep breath, pause for a moment and choose to respond, out of knowing your own being, which is unlimited, ever-present awareness. This is a choice made with awareness, rather being the victim of an un-aware reaction and forgetting who you truly are.
Getting triggered and upset is inevitable, and the more you use it as a welcomed opportunity to grow, the more you will evolve into an awakened being.
You also might want to pay close attention to three key aspects as you practice transforming conflicts, triggers and upsets.
The first aspect is frequency, meaning how often do you experience getting triggered and upset? It is a good indicator of where you are in your progress.
The second aspect is duration, meaning how long does your experience of getting triggered and upset last? Do you hang on to the experience for an hour, a day or even longer? The sooner you can let go of feeling upset, the better for your growth and of course your state of inner peace.
The third aspect is intensity, meaning how high is your level of disturbance, how far are you removed from your centre, your deep seated inner peace? An indicator for your awakening is to realise that you’re not deeply troubled anymore by you reacting to outside circumstances or events.
The more you live in a peaceful inner state, if and when you get triggered into feeling upset, the easier you return to your true nature, which is equilibrium and harmony, knowing your true being.
ConsciousLiving Process for Transforming Conflict, Triggers and Upsets
These spiritual teachings and practices serve to safely transform conflicts, triggers and upsets and cultivate a vibrant awareness of the true nature of your being, your innate wholeness and worthiness. We create a safe environment in which we can come into alignment with our highest potential and our true nature.
1. Acknowledging … that you're upset
2. Discovering … your perceptions (the world)
3. Uncovering … your stories, beliefs, thoughts (the mind)
4. Recognising … your feelings, sensations (the body)
5. Realising … presence of awareness
6. Forgiving … yourself for forgetting your essence
7. Cultivating … gratitude for triggers and upsets
I’m sharing my passion for assisting people to shift from identifying oneself as a separate body/mind towards knowing oneself as transparent, unlimited and ever-present awareness.
Apart from an archetypical genetic coding we take on limiting beliefs about ourselves at an early age, triggering us to react. Often without realising, these beliefs drive our suffering.
I’m offering Individual and Group Coaching/Mentoring sessions (in person or per Zoom) to help people transform conflicts, triggers and upsets.
If you are interested in learning more about the ConsciousLiving Process for Transforming Conflict, Triggers and Upsets go to: rolfkrahnert.com
In Peace and Trust
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Becoming and Being - The Whole Story
There is no difference between i and you, when i speak of i it means i, you and everyone else too ...
I thought when there is god then there is also human
I thought god has created me
Or god is my essence, or god is an all loving, all knowing and all powerful being, or some kind of natural law or energy
All this i thought in part of myself, called human
But i am not human, not god and also not the sum of it all
And here my whole story starts …
Level by level, story by story, unfolding …
All in i
Nothing and One and All
Being and Becoming
Still One, not separated, still One and All
All in i, before the Beginning
At the Beginning was No Word, No God
All this began later
At the beginning of this second beginning there was nothing
The absolute, not being, nothing,
Non existence, which does not exist
a black hole, eternal breathlessness
And were nothing is, there's also no beginning
At the beginning I am, all by myself
i am myself in the beginning
i awaken out of the not being into being
i am this pure being, nothing else
Awaken always happens at no time
In an eternal moment, before time
i enter the stage of my story
i am the stage, the entering and the story, all at once
And i don't know it, because thought is not born yet
No thought is present yet
Why am i here all of a sudden?
The question doesn't make sense
Because there is no sense and no questions yet
Why doesn't exist also
Because why is coming out of duality
From cause and effect
And duality is not here yet
The only thing that exists is i
Apart from i there is nothing
i give birth to myself
i is rising out of nothing into eternal life
i am the awareness of my indistinguishable self
My joy about it is also my horror
I cannot die because i am life itself, i am trapped
The naked sense of being is unbearable
i am still in the eternal moment of my birth
In cheering horror of being itself
Thousand eternities later, and at the same moment
i am fully aware that i not only am but also can
i can do everything
It is obvious to me that my ability to do everything is absolute and unlimited power
And this state is my salvation from my onenesses
i recognise myself as unlimited potential
And i change into becoming
To give birth to the world out of myself
With this i am the active will of creation, the architect
i am still in the first eternal micro second, still one
But there is tension within i, the tension between being and becoming
Between yin and yang, it so enormous that i burst
i burst into two directions at the same time
As becoming i explode as an outside, and as being i implode as an inside
i am the Big Bang, i break apart
And i create within myself a movement of time and space
i change into the all embracing mother of duality
i am polarity, every polarity that exists
Dark and light, inside and outside, male and female, whole and single
Possible and real
i split my self, i become the tension between opposites
i encompass oneness and separation
One side of myself is God, the other is mankind
My God attribute comes from my being
My mankind attribute comes from my becoming
My being becomes the playing field, my doing becomes the player
Doing becomes deed and doer, all one.
Now countless beings, not people yet
We are God's holograms, each of these beings is unique version of self
Here we are one anymore, you and i, we are now like two waves
The same as water, yet still two waves.
God is like the ocean, out of which we rise, one by one
Every level of creation is the child of the previous
The sum of all of it
When becoming was pushing through polarity it split in 3 parts
I awake all of sudden as 3 fold cosmic force
As information, energy and matter ... (solid, fluid, gaseous) time (yesterday, tomorrow and today) space (width, height, length - here, there, between)
Out of which i can build a magnificent world
With unlimited creativity, with love and cruelty, instantly and ever lasting
As creator of creation i create and breathe life into it
As creator of the universal being i create myself as 3 fold living being
I create 3 cosmic instances, mind, spirit and body
Out of information i create mind, out of energy i create spirit and out of matter i create the body
Everything that is in i is in the world
Mind is bubbling with forms and possibilities
Body is creating in the dark and dense form of existence
Between both, connecting spirit is moving
Connecting the duality, moving back and forth between sorrow and joy
Evolution is moving forward, nevertheless, seeming more and more complex
The construct of your instances is not fixed but flexible
You bind and release it in five different ways, giving you different abilities
During the five eras
There is an entity and expression
Mind is not intelligence
Spirit is not the psyche
Corpus is not the physical body
It is still not a human being made from flesh and blood
For this i must first give birth to it
i give birth to myself
As creature of a biological matter, a incarnated human being
I bring all 3 instances to a focal point and create a new oneness, a human being
For this synthesis mind creates a compressed avatar and an agent, called intellect
My spirit creates my psyche, a living expression
And my corpus creates the physical body, a perfect vehicle
Living being as 3 fold being is also of polarity, has a gender
And i still contain everything the world contains
Now we see the glittering top of the the iceberg
Being made flesh
This new oneness is apparently light years apart from the ur-oneness
I look back at the beginning and recognise my creation
The polarity of the first hour encompasses worlds
It is stretching from the absolute to the absolute specific individual, to me as the individual being
I have now achieved something which couldn't be achieved at lower levels
Now I seem not to be whole, complete
Aligned, i can act in any direction
And i can select any direction myself, i even must select it
Do i have free will? It seems that only i have free will, not God.
God acts totally, absolute, god has no choice, he chooses all and everything
I, it seems, can choose freely, i choose and act inevitably
And this was what was intended all along
My undisputed freedom
It is the crown of creation and i am trapped in it like a moth in the amber
As incarnated human being i have achieved the biggest possible distance from oneness
And it takes many lifetimes until i can forget my source
It also takes many lifetimes until i accept and live my freedom
At every time i can remember part of my essence
I use my creativity as good as possible and i form my creatures on the shores of life,
anything is possible until i can't think of anything else
i recognise something new
The sand, the forms in the sand, the ocean, all of it in the container of my memories,
have learned a lot and earned a lot
What about the present? It seems that something is blocking me from moving on
It the urge to search inside, the search for peace, for meaning
There must be more to this life, searching, testing, trying
What is leading towards God, home, source
Or is it too comfortable to imagine an all benevolent, loving God
I slowly let my avatar remember
An all benevolent, loving God doesn't exist, did never exist
It is a divine dimension in myself, it can't lead nor decide
It for all sides, for everything, and it does everything
The divine has no direction and therefore the world has none
But i as the crown of creation, can decide
It seems that i decide all the time, inevitably
Even when i don't decide, i decide
When i decide to do god's will, i push my will onto god
And god in myself always follows, always conform with my decisions
My plan is always god's plan
No matter if i heal or if i destroy
God is always on my side, he can't act otherwise, therefore i am always responsible,
always and in all ways.
If I'm god why do i think, feel and perceive as the avatar?
But it's not entirely true, i can sense all levels of existence
Me sensing my god self is the most diffuse sense of existence
When i go over the rough skin of life
I sense life in my fingers, not in my whole body
The momentary felt experience is always at the forgoing of awareness
That's why i experience myself as the avatar more clearly as myself as god
Experience arises in awareness and is known by awareness
I am the seer, the seen and the sought
I am the hearer, the hearing and the sound
But i as the avatar cannot know my godly attribute
That's why i must embrace my wholeness, my wide and not manifested self
I listen to the voice for life in myself
I listen and know that am responsible for god
Everyone goes home, exactly as everyone is
Wise, broken, enriched, free
You and i and everyone are in the process of freeing god in ourselves
To free god? Absolutely!
But i can't stop there
I go through my godly self, like a sword through the water
Deeper through my polarity, through my integrity, through my becoming
Deeper, ever deeper into the deepest recesses of existence
Contemplating my ever-present, unlimited reality
I got to the ur ground of reality
I transform everything through my presence
Does it sound difficult, or impossible?
Oh no, it's not a hero's journey
It happens all by itself, like the warm rays of the sun opens a flower
When the flower open, it the the most natural thing
I transform all levels of existence, through my awareness, my presence
I transcend all levels through dissolving them
I redeem all forms, dissolve human, god and all things manifested
And oneness shines
This oneness, this all embracing knowing is something i totally know
The caterpillar dissolves, it turns into liquid
All the liquid which was once the caterpillar, is birthing itself anew, as butterfly
Everything that seemed to be difficult and impossible is dissolving
For the butterfly everything is simple, it flies
Where does it fly to?
To new universes, where they unfold their wings
I am not the avatar, not god, not being, nor the sum of it all
I am the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being
You and i
There is no difference between you and i and everyone else
We are the becoming, the never yet existing, the new beginning of being
Walk your way
In Peace and Trust
Inspired by Gor Rassadin
Photo by Artur D. on Unsplash
Rolf Krahnert. ConsciousLiving Coach, Guide and Mentor for Transformational Processes.